Well, I decided to write in English, cause it'll be useful for me.
And of course it will be useful for him.
By the way, he'll come in 37 days and I really believe that all things will be in better way. I miss him so much and this is unfair that I can't tell him this now in case I want it.
however, I've decided to brake up with my boyfriend. The last straw was our sex three days ago. it's not his fault. I just can't have an orgasm with the man I have no feelings about.
it'll happen in two weeks after my birthday. this is my last word, I hope.
I don't lоve him but I'm so afraid of being alone.