I'm done with all this stuff . It's time for changes. it's clear, I won't take it long, so I have to do something, before stuff will done with me. It doesn't matter, how will I find out or what will help me, but it's important how fast will I build a fire to making decisions. After you understood how short can be this life, you start to fighting with the time.
And oh ma ... I'm 18 and I'm not already the child, that means I have to do it totally right and my mistakes won't be forgiven since now. Today I have to make clear-all problems I causes are only my problems and I should avoid them or solve. That is the fucking sense of being.
This is stupid to build castles in the air without the ground. I'm carrying a torch for someone who probably doesn't deserve it.