I really don't understand my feelings. This is ridiculous. Can I objectively be in love with this little boy? This sweet little boy. So sweet that I'm even losing my mind. But what about those man? He holds me in heat and in comfortable, my fluffy boy. He needs my love and I think me too. His loving big hands hold my and I feel safe and calm. I've understood it yesterday at the MDM concert,when after the active dancing under the scene I was so tired that everything I wanted was only him to hug me. By the way that concert was excellent. I've never been at such events. It was the underground rock club "Barvy" in KPI hostel. There were 5 groups, that were playing melodic death metal. This was really heavy music, so heavy that I'm still can't normal hearing and my neck hurts. But this was great and this was something new in my grey life. But what am I saying? This days in my life are so unlike previous, so bright and all this due to my fluffy. To be honest, I'll be glad just to fall asleep with him and wake up in his hands, see his smile in the morning, sniff in his arms and just rumple his hair. I'm crazy or I'm in love? But what will be in 20 days. What I'm going to do? I'm misled in my thoughts. One sensible man said, that if you can't choose between two men, select the second, 'cause if you love first indeed you would never think about another. Maybe this is worth to think about?

And now some bad news. Though I'm not pregnant, I suppose that I'm sick. It can be cystitis, 'cause I'm so hurting and I saw some piece of blood. I'm afraid that I have to visit doctor.